Wishing I could hold you
Back in my arms once more
Remember how you made me feel
With you, I could soar

Now I fear those times are gone
The future page is blank
And so I face the rising dawn
With nothing but my memories

The time is passed, the crossroad near
For us to make a choice:
Either we stand together and face this fear
Or we give up and hide our voice

Shadows rise to cover
The light just burns away
But still remains a shred of hope
Lingering, refusing to not hover

If one smile covers one thousand tears
And as the oceans roar
These tears are hidden for a lifetime
Locked behind some door

I wish that I could stand by your side
And help you through these troubled times
Seems that you would rather hide
And shove these problems to the side

You know you said a lot of things
But how many of them did you mean
Am I really all that much to you
Or are you dragging me on a string

You’ve built me up, don’t tear me down
You know that I’d do anything
But how far would you go for me
Is this coming to an end

I’ve done my best to bear this pain
And walk myself through this storm
I’m trying to see the light through the rain
But I end up following your form

You’ve become the world to me
But what am I to you
Are you shoving me away
Or trying to pull me close

Do you want to fix this
Or will you let me go
We’ve stood through so much
Will we falter from this blow

I’m almost through with waiting
I don’t know if what you say
Is the truth or a make-believe
My hope is starting to fade

I hope you know you’re driving this knife in deep
You promised me we’d talk this out
Suddenly I don’t exist
What the fuck is that about

You’re acting like I’m not there
Even though I’m right in front of you
Are you trying to push me away
Or are you trying to save me

I’m to the point of giving up
But yet I’m holding on
I want to salvage what I can
I can’t do this for long

You said that I’m your everything
But now you’re not so sure
I want to help you cast your problems
Away into the night

Your game is up and now I see
The person that you chose to be
I’m done with this, you’ve cut me free
But you’ll come back and start haunting me

That day will come and doubt me not
When you will face your choice
Resolve will crumble and logic rot
And you will raise your voice

Only to see what you have lost
You want to gain again
You’re willing to pay at any cost
To rise above a friend

For now you keep your space away
From those who hold you dear
Patiently waiting for the day
When you will reappear

But soon you’ll see what you have missed
And you’ll want to take it back
You’ll miss these lips you once have kissed
Then you’ll try a different tact

When all else fails you will turn
And tell me face to face
Of the lesson that you learned
That I still make your heart race

You’ll beg and plead for me to take
You back into my life
This is what you chose to make
It’s your turn to feel my strife

The pain will rise but come to pass
As you let go your prize
These memories you harbor will reflect as glass
As a new love comes to rise

But you’ll be back just wait and see
Your old feelings will show through
The feelings you reserved for me
Will cross the line you drew

You see these tears that I let fall
Though I turn and face away
Silently you come to crawl
To my side you say you’ll stay

The moments of bliss that we had shared
Live on inside my mind
Deep down I know you truly cared
A downward spiral that care did wind

Some days it seems it doesn’t hurt
The pain I do not show
Because the was so sweetly curt
My love becomes a deadly foe

Creeping up out of the gloom
Something no one could predict
Facing this distrust which began to bloom
And resulted in your final edict

I know that you depreciate
Some of the things I’ve done
Out of love I bit the bait
And thought you were the one

Every time that you are near
I want to pull you close
And through my heart the pain does sear
Making me feel comatose

The way we were still fresh in mind
Close to the surface the tears do dwell
I feign the strength I need to find
To lock these feelings into a cell

I highly doubt my love for you
Will ever come to fade
You hear these words and know they’re true
And see through my charade

I feel this ache inside my heart
And I know that it will last
We once were close, now worlds apart
Your love for me is in the past

I don’t think you realize
What you decided to let go
You say you need to stabilize
Or is it just a show

I want to cry but I’m all cried out
I know I missed this chance
I want to scream and I want to shout
Just for one last dance

To be so close but yet so far
Really drives this deep
I used to wish upon a star
For you I climbed a hill so steep

At night I cry myself to sleep
Because I know that you’re not there
Throughout the day I want to weep
Though I try to catch your stare

My head held down as I walk through the hall
But I stare as you walk away
I feel like I have no world at all
There’s so much I have left to say

The future that I wanted
Was never meant to be
By your spirit I am haunted
I wonder if you think of me

The times that I looked forward to
Are dead within your mind
I thought I meant a lot to you
You severed the ties I worked so hard to bind

Part of me Is hoping
You’ll be back once more
I am getting nowhere moping
I need to get myself up off the floor

Staring at the rising moon
I remember what you said
I never figured anytime soon
Your love for me would be put to bed

I hoped that we would last for long
Those hopes are fading away
Withering away just like your song
Growing smaller with each day

I desperately wish for you to see
This pain that you are putting me through
You don’t know what you do to me
I don’t know what to expect from you

Don’t you think that I’ve felt bad
All the times I told you no
Now I feel eternally sad
Every time I watch you go

I wonder how things would be
If we had never met
Would you still be what I see
Could I possibly avoid this net

I feel as though I’m wrapped in chains
Unable to escape from this
I turn to face the pouring rains
And turn my back on my past bliss

Though I refuse to hang my head
The world insists on shoving it down
My mind reflects on what you said
Sometimes I fear that I might drown

Although surrounded I feel alone
No one seems to catch my tears
Into the night my heart has flown
My pleas fall upon deaf ears

I know this time you’re gone for good
But still I hope that you’ll return
You only did what you thought you should
In Hell I feel that I should burn

With every down there comes an up
Supposedly this can’t get worse
I’ve poured my tears into a cup
I feel I live a life of curse

Feeling as though I walk this earth
Accompanied by the ghost of you
Completely devoid of happiness or mirth
Distanced away from me you grew

I know you see I’m painfully aware
Whenever you happen to be around
You know my pain but you just don’t care
Upon my life good luck has frown’d

They say love blooms fragile as a rose
You’ve opened my eyes to a I’ve never seen
The door you opened is beginning to close
My time with you felt like a dream

I wish that you and I could talk
But yet I know you’re too far gone
By your side I want to walk
To your heart I was drawn

I do not know what crossed your mind
To make you think that this should end
Around my heart your love did wind
I hoped our futures would forever blend

Now this seems too much to bear
I see you and I want to cry
Though you’re far away I still care
These days I feel that I should die

By the chains of love I’m bound
Nothing more I want to be free
The sweetness of your love I found
Now all I want is you with me

Every day I watch you pass
Deep down inside I cry so hard
I know I’m separated from you by glass
My emotions roll but still are barred

Why can’t you see how you make me feel
Why are you blind to this pain you’ve caused
This love I have is completely real
I wish I could have my love be paused

To have you by my side once more
Would truly mean my world
I want to feel that I can soar
My mind’s been racing and my thoughts are swirled